Your salvation isn't about going to church or being religious. Your salvation isn't about being a good person or about doing good works.
Your salvation IS about repenting for your sins and surrendering your life to Christ.
Jesus has been pursuing you all along, so stop running!
"If you declare with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved." (Romans 10:9-10)